First Post!

I'm fickle. I'm also a fat ass. I've made my husband a fat ass (a lot of that I can blame on America though). I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, Chronic Migraines, Asthma, Allergies, Post-Cholecystectomy Syndrome, Keratosis Pilaris, Rosacea and Anti-Phospholipid Syndrome. That's a shit ton of problems. I weigh 220 and I am 5'2", and at the ripe old age of 27, I have high cholesterol. I struggled with Anorexia as a teen and my lowest weight was somewhere in the 70's. I am currently at my highest weight. My husband is British and was pretty much the picture of health before he came to America. I got married at 19 and the only cooking I knew was good old fashioned Midwestern/Southern food. I used butter like Paula Deen.

My husband, Sean, works on rotations. Five weeks overseas and five weeks off at home. His last rotation, we ate steamed fish and veggies pretty much every night, but I still feel like we could do more. My son is 4 and his enthusiasm for fruits and veggies is waning quickly, which worries me. I have about a thousand reasons why I'm going to try to go raw vegan. Since the hubs left for rotation yesterday morning, I took the chance to purge the house of meat, dairy, fish, processed foods, pretty much everything. My usual grocery bill at Wal-Mart or Meijer is around $200 every week, week and a half. Most of it is snacky things for my son. I am guilty of giving him hot dogs, ham, cheese, every horrible thing most American Mom's obliviously feed their kids. Every time he asks for a can of vienna sausages, a little piece of me dies. No. More.

Today, I went to Kroger. Usually I avoid that place like the plague because they're so bloody expensive, but I allowed myself free reign in the produce section. I chose Kroger because their produce section is so gorgeous, next time will be Trader Joe's. I came out with a cart full of food for $67. My son giddily asked for things and I never once told him no. We picked out melons, berries, grapes, apples, bananas, greens, cauliflower, carrots, celery, bean sprouts, citrus, anything that looked remotely good, we grabbed it. I noticed how much heavier the cart felt compared to when it's full of frozen things, meats, junk. We smelled and felt our produce and had fun bagging it up together. We talked about how we couldn't wait to get home and crack one of those sugarbaby melons open and feast.

I am not a big eater. Portions are not my problem. I can barely finish a Happy Meal. My problem is Insulin Resistance from the PCOS and bad food choices. I've come to this place in my life by baby steps. Mountain Dew and Dr. Pepper were my weaknesses. A couple years ago, I switch to Diet Soda, a few months ago, I cut soda out completely. I started buying the Fruit2O's and sparkling flavored waters, and a little bit of weight budged. Once I finish the few bottles I have left in the fridge, I will just be on plain old water. I have 5 weeks to commit to this and show my husband the benefits of it before he gets home. This 5 weeks is an experiment. I'm hoping this blog keeps me honest and on track. So down to the facts...

As of today I am 220 pounds. Every morning I take Benadryl, 750mg of Metformin Extended Release, Claritin, Advair and Dulera. Every Evening I take Benadry, Unisom (Doxylamine), 81mg Aspirin, Zyrtec, Metormin, Trazadone (as needed for sleep), Advair, Dulera and all throughout the day, I have a Ventolin inhaler, as needed.

I didn't eat breakfast, but I had half a Sugarbaby Watermelon, a handful of Black Grapes, a Banana and I'm going to eat some baby carrots here in a minute. So far, it's only 4PM. Dinner tonight will probably go on tomorrow's post.

Thanks for reading, I hope all my posts aren't this long and boring!